Full-Blown Suffering: A Personal Fight Against the Mysterious Suffering of Cluster Headache Syndrome

It began on a dreary Monday in the morning in the autumn of 2016. I worked as a educator, trying to settle a new group of students, when a sudden pain sprang behind my one eye. This was followed by quick shocks, similar to electric shocks. As the school day came and went, the pain subsided and then returned with greater intensity. Four times that day I handed over a teaching assistant with worksheets and ran to the school bathroom to soak my face with cold water. I tried aspirin, but the pain remained unbearable.

The attacks appeared repeatedly that fall, and again in spring, soon establishing an yearly cycle. September and October were the most severe, then February and March. I could anticipate the pattern: aura in the shower, early pangs on the train, full-on pain in class by 9.30am. In late 2019, a doctor eventually sent me to a neurologist and I was diagnosed with cluster headache disorder.

This condition often start with intense discomfort around a single eye that lasts up to three hours.

Approximately 1 in 1000 people suffer by the condition, and males are more often affected. Cluster headaches usually begin with abrupt, severe pain around a single eye that reaches its peak within a short time and lasts for as long as three hours. Episodes occur in cycles, every day or multiple times a day, and are accompanied by tearing eyes, drooping eyelids or facial perspiration. I have the episodic form, which arrives in periodic bouts; others have continuous attacks, characterized by the absence of long symptom-free periods.

What connects patients is the severity. One study rated the pain at 9.7 10, higher than broken bones or other conditions. A separate found 64% of cluster headache patients experienced thoughts of self-harm amid attacks; the figure dropped to 4% when they were pain-free.

Val Hobbs, 74, a chronic patient from Wales, isn't surprised. Her episodes began when she was two. “I would hurl myself on the floor and bang my head. That was put down to being spoiled,” she says. Her condition worsened through childhood. Alcohol in her adolescence, like many causes, made things worse. After drinking sherry at her school leaving party, she remembers hardly being able to see on the bus home.

Her family often mistook her episodes as drunken behavior. Support finally came from her father and then from her husband, her spouse. “I was very lucky to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs took office work after moving, but often hid her condition. She was fired from one job, partly due to time off during episodes. Her breakthrough diagnosis came in the early 2000s at a national neurology center.

Nevertheless, the inability to plan daily activities around erratic attacks took its effect. She especially disliked being unable to plan outings, being seen as flaky as a co-worker, and even having to be cared for by her family during the paralysis caused by the worst episodes. “It robs you of the simple liberties we don't appreciate until they're gone,” she says. She recalls obtaining tickets for a significant concert, only to have an attack inside a facility.


Headaches have been described throughout the ages. “The earliest account of headache comes by way of the Mesopotamians in antiquity,” write authors in a book on the subject. They linked the disease to an malevolent entity who afflicted his victims' heads.

Ancient medical texts propose unusual treatments for what modern experts would describe as a migraine. In the middle ages, severe headache was identified as a distinct condition, with therapies including herbal concoctions to other, more superstitious remedies.

It was a Dutch doctor who provided the initial comprehensive account of a cluster headache. In his medical observations, he speaks of a patient “suffering with a very severe headache happening and vanishing each day at fixed hours”.

The disorder were only formally recognised by international medical committees in 1988. From the 1960s to the late 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a problem with a key artery that delivers blood to the head. Leading experts in treating the disorder note this.

In 1998, researchers released the results of a research project for which they had triggered attacks in patients and observed the episodes in a imaging machine. The results, published in a prominent journal, showed increased activity of the a brain region, which is responsible for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in discomfort, and a reduction when they recovered.

Despite such progress, identification remains slow. One man's symptoms started in 1986 and felt like “a modelling balloon being inflated behind my one eye”. GPs thought he had a sinus issue; he had four surgeries before eventually being correctly identified in recently, after a physician looked up his symptoms.

Specialists say wait times in diagnosis and treatment occur because patients are rarely seen mid-attack. “You're tired and low, but not in agony,” one says. He proceeds by eliminating other primary headache disorders, such as tension-type headache, before confirming cluster headaches. A detailed patient history is crucial: on which side do signs occur? For how long? What time of year? Are there triggers, such as alcohol? Certain characteristics such as tearing, drooping eyelids and nasal congestion help verify the diagnosis. Once identified, patients may be sent to dedicated clinics. But a lot of first go to emergency rooms or are given inadequate therapies.

A charity trustee, 78, has suffered from cluster headaches for the majority of her adult life, although she has been free from an attack since 2016. When she was in her 20s, she had her molars pulled because dental professionals misinterpreted her pain. She believes the dental profession still need greater education. When a sufferer sought help from a support group, it was she who responded. I remember calling a support line during an attack in 2021; a reassuring volunteer guided me through oxygen treatment and medication until the attack passed.

National guidance on management recommend that patients are offered high-dose oxygen and/or a specific medication delivered by injection. No tablets or opioids should be used. Preventive options include a blood pressure medication, which reportedly soothes the attacks of some people.

But consultant neurologists believe the guidance need updating to reflect a clearer clinical process and help GPs avoid incorrect prescriptions. For periodic patients, the treatment window is critical: “The duration of the cycle determines the treatment.” Brief cycles with infrequent attacks are managed with abortive treatment only. Longer or more severe bouts require preventives such as certain drugs, sometimes combined with corticosteroids. Many patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a bout – an procedure into the side of the skull where the discomfort is that reduces nerve signals.

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Joseph Rivera
Joseph Rivera

Elara is a seasoned journalist with a passion for uncovering stories that connect communities across the globe.